This week very stress and very low mood, no good things to cheer me up, only i cheer people. One of the reason is the off campus study week which makes me very tired, i rather go school to have lessons everyday. Somemore common test coming up, but currently still no motivation to push me. Losing concentration, my focus is dripping down every seconds, feel like dying.

Went to play basketball to force all my energy out and give my brain some blanks... not thinking anything. Feels lighter after all my sweat being forced out, muscles exerted to maximum, left no energy, a bit giddy, think nothing . . . felt better

Hate claustrophobia, like to be with the nature, see better, think wider, head further. Earth is still rotating, heart is still beating, humans are still breathing, life must go on. There are still so many trees in the forest, but these beautiful trees somehow got saw down or got burnt. Leaving a bunch of unwanted dead leaves and dead branches. What can we do? Now is already the 21st century, all these things cannot be avoided otherwise life cannot go on, we must accept the truth. If not, we cannot achieve anything we want in the future, then what's the different from a puppet?